Summary: Politics and distractions interfere with Gil-Galad's message to Eregion. Sauron in fair form, seeking to deceive, undergoes the initiation of the elven-smiths of Eregion.
Story Warnings: Slash, BDSM, Graphic Sex. Rated NC-17.
Characters: Sauron, Celebrimbor, Celeborn, Pengolod, Aranwë.
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Pengolod? Aranwe? Who are these survivors of Gondolin? Click here to read a related Tyellas story, The Thrall of Gondolin, for their previous history. Same warnings and more.
I.
The Lord of Gifts.
Celebrimbor,
no other, came to his guest-house to bring him the news. "Yes, it will happen,
and tonight! You shall be one of the Gwaith-i-Mírdain when our ritual is done; the first who is not an Elf to join
our fellowship of jewel-smiths."
"I am
honoured." Sauron smiled with lazy brilliance, aware of the whiteness of his
teeth against his golden-tawny skin, his blond hair silken in the sun. He had
wrought the form he wore with his Maia's powers, to bedazzle Elves and Men
with a face fair and strange. Sauron's full height was a narrow and regal,
tall as an elf-lord or Numenoréan. But he was draped along the edge of a
window-sill, lissom and relaxed, white robes fluttering in the morning breeze.
"The
vote of our council was unanimous. Little surprise, after how you have aided us
these past three months with gifts of knowledge." The elf wore his smith's
clothes, a leather apron and leggings with the red shirt that only the Mírdain
might wear. His swaggering mein softened as he came closer with a quiet
question. "You will go through with it in full measure?"
"Why
should I not? I have come to dwell among the peoples of Middle-Earth, and do my
works amongst them. To do so fully, I should learn your ways." Sauron had
learned early on that the Elves swiftly detected lies, but that he could phrase
his truth as words they wished to hear. "And it will be you yourself who leads
me; none other. You have promised me," he said, smiling again. "Why do you
doubt me now?"
Celebrimbor flicked back his silver forelock. "Do you truly know what you will submit to, Annatar?" To him, this was the only name the golden being before him carried. "We elves live in peace now, but I have told you that initiation of the Mírdain is hard for some. It comes from our old warrior's rituals of ansereg, once meant to harden elves for war and torment. Enduring it means that you are as devoted to the Mírdain as the warriors of the past were to their honor, and to each other. The pain--"
Sauron
lifted a hand dismissively. "I am Maia, and will endure it, I assure you."
He leaned back further against the window-sill, and a ray of light spilled from
his shoulder to between his legs, his robes made translucent by the sun behind.
The
elf-man looked down, drawn by the line of light. He forced his gaze back up to
Sauron's face with a guilty glint in his eyes. "It is not right that I
should sing the praises of our ritual to you, when I am the one who will put you
to pain. I will send another to you, to give you counsel, that you may make a
true choice in this matter."
Sauron
toyed with a lock of his own hair, twining it around his finger like a bright
ring. "If you insist. But who is wiser than you?" One of the princes of
the Noldor, he thought, the greatest living smith of the Elves, proud
among the proud, sparked with rebellion. And ripe to fall to me. He let the
hair slip from his fingers and stood. "I trust you fully, Celebrimbor."
Sauron stretched one arm towards the elf-man, extending a hand in friendship.
Before
the two could touch, they both started at a new sound, a clear horn-call.
"That is the call of Lindon," said Celebrimbor, looking through the window.
"We have not had one of their messengers since you came to us in midsummer.
Did you not journey to Lindon?"
"Yes.
Briefly. A fair land, of course; but simpler. They are not so cunning as your
folk." Sauron stayed back well within the shadows of the room, peering out
after the rider only when the horse had passed along the road to Ost-in-Edhil.
He did not recognize the rider, but it seemed he was not of rank. The horse was
a piebald, not the white horse of a noble. Sauron leaned up against the
windowsill with Celebrimbor, and stroked the elf-man's arm beneath the red
silk. "Perhaps I shall come with you to the house of the Mírdain now. I would
not delay in my tutelage," said Sauron.
"Once
you are of the Mírdain, I will teach you everything I know." Celebrimbor
stepped aside. "But it is fitting to wait. Matters are strange enough
already." The elf did not say anything more, a busy silence, as if he thought
much. Sauron thought to be impatient at this. Then he decided it was best to
draw Celebrimbor back up to the highlands where the Mírdain's hall stood,
before he thought to seek the errand-rider of Lindon.
II.
An Errand-Rider's Distractions.
"Lord
Celeborn, our King Gil-Galad sends this letter to you and your Lady, for your
urgent attention." The errand-rider of Lindon knelt before Celeborn and
proffered a scroll in a leather case. "Is the Lady nigh?"
"No,
my Lady visits the forest realm of Lorinánd, thirty leagues away. She will
return in the spring." It was early autumn outside. "Was this all your
errand, to bring us one scroll? Do you know anything of the matter?"
The
rider, Pengolod, shook his head. "No, my lord. I was the rider because the
sea-elves and their lords are busy at this season. And I wished to ride here on
my own errand, to learn the language of the Dwarves of Khazad-dûm."
Celeborn
had been about to open the scroll, but he put it down in amazement. "Why in
Arda would you want to do that?"
"I am
a loremaster, of the school of the Lambengolmor. The language of the Dwarves is
as strange as their crafts, and I would learn more. They say that Elf and Dwarf
were never greater friends than in Eregion and Khazad-dûm, and so I journeyed
here." Celeborn's face grew stern. He obviously did not count himself among
the dwarf-friends. "Perhaps someone here might be so good as to aid me?"
"You
may do as you please, as long as you like, in Eregion. But if you deal with the
Naugrim, you deal with the order of the Mírdain, not the court of Ost-in-Edhil."
He gestured to an esquire standing by. "See if one of the Mírdain is near to
hand."
"One
waits with a message from Lord Celebrimbor," the elf-man said. Celeborn said
to bring him in to be heard. Pengolod noted that Celeborn still did not open the
scroll, but tapped it in one hand impatiently. "Aranwë of the Gwaith-i-Mírdain, my lord," said the esquire, returning.
"Aranwë?"
Pengolod was shocked to meet one of his few fellow survivors of Gondolin.
"Pengolod?"
The smith stopped short, like a horse afraid to fall on ice.
Celeborn
was brisk with Aranwë. "You both know each other? Splendid. Aranwë, take
this guest into the charge of the Mírdain; he has come from Lindon to deal with
the Naugrim, and thus is in your order's keeping. Make sure his horse is
brought to your stables. Is this the latest requisition?" Aranwë handed over
a slate and nodded, still glancing nervously at Pengolod. Celeborn read the
slate and frowned. "With winter on the way, I cannot place the Mírdain first
for wood and charcoal. Make sure that Celebrimbor knows that."
"He
does, my lord, and thus we send the requisition as soon as we might, after our
morning council," said Aranwë, patiently.
"Mnh.
What about the gate-forging we called for? Bring me news of that, next time. And
one other matter. Tell Celebrimbor that he and I must discuss the tithing again.
I heard you smiths were very successful in trading at the midsummer festival of
the Naugrim."
"I
shall tell him, lord." The
esquire led the two elves out while Celeborn bent to the scroll Pengolod had
brought at last.
They
stood uncertainly in the entry-hall. Pengolod spoke first. "This is good to
find! Eregion seems to suit you."
Aranwë
was incredulous. "Good to find? When we last parted - "
"Is it
not said that oaths and grudges lead one to one's doom? I have suffered; and
you have suffered; and certain matters have ended."
Aranwë
looked down at the loremaster's pleasant, narrow face. "You are very
forgiving."
Pengolod
shrugged, flicking back his black hair. "So few of us of Gondolin remain. Will you speak the language of old with me? I miss it, and those days."
Aranwë
smiled in sympathy, and his next words were not in the common Sindar, but in a
near-forgotten dialect of Quenya. "It is not as sweet to my ears; but to
oblige you, I shall. Why are you here, from a hundred leagues and more away, to deal with
Dwarves?"
"No,
you are my host, you speak first," said Pengolod. "I knew that your name was
in the rolls of Eregion, but I did not expect to meet you here so soon. What
brought you here?"
"For a
time, I was with the elf-men of Maedhros." When Pengolod did not cry out in
dismay at that, Aranwë unbent further. "They were not particular about who
wished to join their company, in the last days of that age. When both Morgoth
and Beleriand were downed, and the last of the Sons of Fëanor were fallen,
Celebrimbor was their heir, and so I joined his van. And I am here still."
"A
jewel-smith now, rather than a sword-smith," said Pengolod.
"And
glad of the change! The art is - I won't bore you. Now, why are you still in
Middle-Earth?"
"There
is always a boat ready to part at the quays of Lindon. It makes it easier to
wait another day. And I have many works to complete. In Lindon," he said,
sweeping his sage-green cloak back with a flourish, "I am the chief of
loremasters and leader of the school of Lambengolmor."
"You'll
be trying to cozen pen-tips out of me, then," Aranwë said. "Your
counterpart here, Erestor, never leaves us smiths alone."
"I had
heard of the new metal pens, but we still have only quill-pens in Lindon. When I
compare the smiths there to Gondolin…" It was two miles from Ost-in-Edhil,
up rising land to the house of the Mírdain, with the piebald horse ambling
behind them. Pengolod exchanged all the news of Lindon, then descended into
rumor and gossip, delighted at the refuge of the old language.
The
house of the Mírdain stood tall at the top of a rise, before more foothills
marched up into mountains nearby. It was as great and many-roomed as the main
hall of Ost-in-Edhil, ringed with outbuildings. Aranwë explained that the hall
was far from the city so that the wrights could harness a mountain stream with a
waterwheel, and not disturb the tree-lined city streets with the forges' smoke
and noise. The order of the Mírdain encompassed all the metalworkers of Eregion,
and they vied to make even pot-hooks things of beauty.
Once the
horse was stabled, they came to the tall doors of the Mírdain, twice Aranwë's
height and covered in a thousand worked panels of gilded and jeweled metal. Two
brindle hounds panted on the step in the sun, scratching at their gold and
leather collars. Aranwë did not pet them; they were guard-hounds on duty.
Pengolod had to endure their curious noses before they let him pass over the red
granite steps.
III.
At the Table of Celebrimbor.
Celebrimbor
knelt on one side of a wooden table; the dwarf Narvi stood on the other. With a
somber nod, Narvi placed the short necklace that he examined back on the table.
"No need for you to consult with me on this, my friend; the diamonds are clear
as water, and diamonds true for all that."
"That
eases me. I was afraid they were lesser stones, white sapphire or spinel."
"Unlike
you, to doubt your making, Celebri," said Narvi, giving the elf an earth-wise
glance.
"I did
not cut the stones myself. The work needed to be done quickly, since this jewel
is for giving tonight." A bell was rung immediately outside the door. Elf and
dwarf both sighed at yet another interruption. "Enter!" Celebrimbor said.
"No,
it has no particular name," one of his smiths was saying to a companion,
speaking an old dialect. "It's just a door-bell."
Celebrimbor
listened as Pengolod introduced himself and his errand, then Aranwë mentioned
how Pengolod was their guest by Celeborn's word. "Of course, of course,"
said Celebrimbor. "And luck is with you today; please have the honour of
meeting Lord Narvi of the Khazad." Narvi
removed his hood and bowed, then stood and straightened the skull-cap he wore.
"At
your service and your family's," said Pengolod, kneeling smoothly.
Narvi
bristled as he looked at the elf willing to place himself eye to eye. "So, you
wish our knowledge. We are not as you Elves are, with days to squander; our time
and our tongue are precious to us. You are not of the folk of Eregion. You look
kin to the Sindar, and they scorned us as uncouth, long ago. Why should I aid
you?"
Pengolod
took out a suede bag the size of a plum. "I would not squander your days
either, lord of the Khazad; I have brought pearls."
The
dwarf's beard fanned out as he smiled. "My friend from the Sea! Narvi shall
be your guide. No other dwarf is as well-spoken as I." He bowed again.
"Celebri, I shall return; this good elf and I must take counsel. I would not
have him rooked in the depths of Khazad-dûm." The two smiths managed to keep
plain faces while the loremaster and his would-be teacher left.
Celebrimbor
leaned onto the table, eyes narrowed with laughter. "That turnabout was worth
one of the pearls! So, how bad were matters down in the Great Hall?" Aranwë
relayed the news, and Celebrimbor's mirth turned to anger. He smacked the
table, then strode about the room. "Always the same thing, as if we are a
river of wealth from naught! First he foists this fellow on us, then stints us
of what we need while pressing for more of our jewels in tithe. It began when
our Lady left in early summer, and he tightens the screw. What kind of lackwits
does he take the Mírdain for? How does he think the steel for his gates comes
to Eregion, and the metal of his silver chair? We Mírdain won it for him. Were
these matters in his hands, we would dwell in the lowlands and eat acorns."
He
lifted a placating hand to Aranwë. "I am ranting; do not mind me. But if he
was so cold to you, who have the manners of old, we are low in his favour.
Celeborn can wait until tomorrow. I suppose our guest did not sweeten his mood
by speaking of Dwarves. I heard you chattering to that well-favored fellow in an
old language. Friends, are you? Is he a widower like you?" he added.
"Nothing
like that," said Aranwë.
Celebrimbor's
teasing smile was gentle. "I thought you appreciated those narrow Sindar
backs? Bring the loremaster along tonight, to witness the Mírdain's
circle of ansereg for Annatar. He will take the tale of our great deeds around.
And it will give you two more to chatter about."
Aranwë
was less appreciative of this than Celebrimbor expected. "I never knew any
Maia of Annatar's name or seeming when I lived in Aman. And Pengolod told me
that Gil-Galad sent him forth from Lindon, distrusting his intent."
"What?
What was awry?" asked Celebrimbor.
"He
could not say; only that Annatar spoke with their lords, and went forth swiftly
afterwards, riding hard from their gates."
"And
that is all the news." Celebrimbor picked up the necklace from the table,
wrapping it around the knuckles of one hand like a fierce ornament.
"Annatar's words to me ring true; that he is returned to bring order to
Middle-Earth, and work with its peoples. Perhaps he spoke too much of change to
them in Lindon. He brings us many a new thing, although his mein is ever
modest." Celebrimbor's eyes became sharp. "But he will not be so modest
after this night. It shows the merit of the Gwaith-i-Mírdain, that one of that
high kind bows to us."
"That
reminds me of a promise I made to Annatar. Can you spare more of the day? I hate
being torn from my work-bench myself, as you do, but this is a more engaging
errand," said Celebrimbor.
"As
long as I need not go to Ost-in-Edhil again," Aranwë said.
"Someone
should counsel Annatar in the laws and bearing of ansereg, before tonight. Will
you speak with him?"
Celebrimbor's
smith looked pleased but perplexed. "Certainly, but why me?"
"After
bearing the scourges of Gondolin and the brand of Maedhros, and the many times
you have knelt for ansereg amongst us Mírdain, who better?" Celebrimbor ran
the chain through his hand. "And if you still think matters are awry, after
you speak with him - come and tell me."
IV.
Humble Persuasion.
Sauron
strode the hall of the house of the Mírdain where he would take his trial that
night. It was tall and round, with a roof domed in stained glass, and a floor
tiled in curved patterns like the dome of the heavens. The tiles swirled
together into a central circle. He sought for what might make the space ready
for torment, and was disappointed to see only a narrow iron bar with pulleys
halfway across the dome's height. The door opened with a boom, for the chamber
echoed every sound threefold.
"Good
afternoon, my lord," said one of the elven-smiths. "Cele—the lord
Celebrimbor sent me to offer you what counsel I may." With irritation, Sauron
noted that this fellow was as tall as he was, with the height of the High Elves
of old. Not as fair as he, of course, but who was?
Sauron
knew that he had more than one Mírdan to win over. Tonight, he had to seduce
all of them to him, those who served as well as their lord. He would see how
easy it was to draw this one in as one of his allies. "Let us sit here in the
shade and speak. I would know what I might of the bearing of ansereg."
"Do
you even feel pain, being a Maia?" the elven-smith asked.
"I
have more mastery of my body than the children of the One," said Sauron,
unable to bring himself to say "Illúvatar." "But it is still a body,
subject to the laws of flesh. Yes, I will feel pain."
The
smith frowned. "The Maiar I met at the forges of Aulë in Aman felt little."
Sauron
gritted his teeth and honeyed his tongue. "This must be why Celebrimbor has
sent you to me, then. You honour me."
"I
knew Maiar of old, yes. It is unusual to meet one with a name not heard long
before."
"Middle-Earth
is great, and I have wandered far. I did not abandon it during the dark days,
yet I have spoken with Valar many a time." Morgoth had been that Vala. "Now
that I come to know the Elves and their wisdom, I wish other tasks had freed me
sooner. Not all my works have gone as I wished," he sighed. "I hoped to try
again, to repair the hurts of Middle-Earth, which I love."
The
elf-smith looked through him, grieved with memory, and Sauron hid his glee. "I
understand what you say about the past not being as you had wished." The elf
looked down at his scarred hands. "And wishing to make amends."
Sauron
bowed his own head in false commiseration. "I thought I would find kinship
among the Mírdain. I have great knowledge of the earth, its stones and metals
and their craft - some my own secrets, as you smiths have yours. And once I
join the Mírdain, it will be shared amongst them." The elf-man's look was
hungry at those words, he saw; this was one of those to whom their work was near
to all. He leaned in closer. "Is it not our task to work together, we of Aman,
to ease the misery of Middle-Earth?"
"In
which ways?" asked the elf-smith.
Sauron
said, "Perhaps my design is foolish. I would wait to speak."
"You
are wise, Annatar. It is meet not to trust all at the first meeting. But our
lord trusts you, and so you have our trust." The elf-man seemed to relax. "I
will tell you all you need to know of bearing ansereg. And perhaps later you
might think of me when you wish to teach us Mírdain more."
"Most
willingly. This matter of ansereg - I should think it as simple as not crying
out. How much will they torture me?" Sauron asked.
The
elf-man said, "You speak words of fear and dread. There is pain, but not
beyond what you may bear. My own story will show you!"
Sauron
listened, fascinated, as the elf-man described the ritual of ansereg with the
words of one who knew and loved it well. No word of this had come to the
dungeons of his old citadel, Tol-in-Guarhoth. Nor had Celebrimbor spoken half so
much of taking it as this elf-man did. If the elves endured these trials at
their own hands, even found a measure of lustful pleasure in it, small wonder
many had lived through Sauron's own tortures as long as they did, in the War
of the Jewels a thousand years and more ago.
He
nodded as the elf before him, won over by his listening beauty, said that there
was great wisdom to be had from it. There certainly was, Sauron thought.
When he moved to topple the Elves, he would not make the old mistakes, trying to
break them in the ways they knew. Instead, he would bind them to him. Their link
to the life of Arda would be his to use. If he failed, and the Elves were not
won to him (as he thought they might easily be in their pride and hunger) he
would destroy them without compromise. He did not need them as thralls. There
were mortal Men for that, in this age of the world.
For now,
he would endure this trial to win all their trust. The smith was telling him
enough that he might mimic what the watchers desired to see. By seeming to give,
he would take all. As for the one who would deal to him tonight; he would be the
Lord of Gifts indeed, and give each torment back to him a thousandfold when the
time was right.
A dark
hope began to glow in the hollow of his spirit where another being's heart
would have been, as he bethought new ways to bind the Elves. "Your tale is
wondrous!" he said. "Tell me more of the way pain is bound up with desire.
It thrills me to think of it."
V.
The Circle of Ansereg
That
night, Celebrimbor walked about the concourse of the Mírdain, who were ringed
around the edge of the domed chamber. The hall was crowded up to the edge of the
tiled circle. Almost all of the Mírdain were
there, two hundred and more, the elf-men in black and silver, fewer elf-women in
silver and white, a somber company. The only jewels any wore were the chokers of
the Mírdain, of the same make on each throat, but varied in gems and metals.
One of the wedding-jewels of the Noldor was a necklace; thus the choker
symbolized that the Mírdain were wedded for life to their order and their
works.
Two
silvered chains had been hoisted to the bar that split the dome's height,
their lengths sparkling in the lamplight. Each ran from the bar to coil for
several ells along the floor. Celebrimbor saw that the watchers for the ritual
had arranged some helpful things: water to drink, dark-dyed wool towels for
catching sweat or blood. He took his ease, strolling the edge of the circle and
speaking with all and sundry. He was not like Celeborn, he thought, who was high
and remote. No, all the Mírdain were equal together, after the circle of
ansereg and the Mírdain's oath.
At the
edge of the circle, Celebrimbor could see Pengolod, and smiled to note that he
was wearing a borrowed black and silver cloak that was too long for him. Well
and good; there would be a story taken around, to increase the merit of the Mírdain.
It was up to him to make it a tale that was worthy.
Celebrimbor
realized that he was thinking of anything but the golden flesh that was about to
come under his hands. Annatar's beauty in the sun that morning had unnerved
him. Hearing that Annatar had craved deep counsel of ansereg, receptive to every
idea, was the last spark needed to kindle desire for the Maia. Part of his mind
said that he aspired too high, and that he should share only knowledge, not
desire, with one not of elf-kind, lest he come to a strange fate. But his spine
felt stronger and his flail-arm itched at the thought of having all a Maia's
power kneeling at his feet.
The
ritual did not begin until the one who was to be initiated was ready. A Mírdan
came with that message, then left to bring Annatar. One of the seconds rang a
clear bell, and the crowd fell silent. To the side, a musician began to play a
drum; the music would endure for the rite of ansereg.
And
Annatar entered.
The door
was closed with a boom behind him. In the silence after its echo, he stepped
forth into the circle, head bowed, tall and supple as a willow-tree, wearing a
brief linen loincloth. Amidst the dark throng and their pale faces, he was
unique, a being of gold, revealed by near-nudity to be unalloyed and pure. He
cast one hesitant look around the crowd, then knelt and locked his gaze to
Celebrimbor's, as if taking refuge there. Celebrimbor had seen many things in
the faces of those who knelt before him; nervousness, pride, dark hungers,
incipient joy. Annatar mingled a touch of fear with a profound receptiveness.
The beautiful, waiting face before him seemed forged from the precious metals of
his dreams. He collected himself; everyone was waiting for him to speak.
"The
initiation of the Mírdain begins!" he said. "Tonight this one is come to
show his worth. Name yourself!"
"I am
Annatar."
"And
name your desire."
"To
join the Gwaith-i-Mírdain ; to be one of your number, and labour with you."
And at
this near all the watchers said, in one voice, "What do you bring us?"
Annatar
opened his arms and spread his hands, and said, "Myself."
The
crowd cried out again. "How do we know this?"
Annatar
folded his arms to his bare chest. "I offer myself to the Mírdain in the
circle of ansereg, that they may witness how I endure to gain my desire."
Celebrimbor
alone spoke. "Then rise you and take up these chains. As long as you can
endure, hold to them; nothing binds you save your will and pride."
Annatar
rose and stretched his arms high, taking the chains. He might run his hands down
the length to splay on the floor, or even swing higher if he was strong enough.
To release them was a signal that he could bear no more. Celebrimbor took the
measure of the elegant back, the cupped croup divided by white linen, the
sweeping lines of the arms and legs. He paced around the postulant in a circle,
running a hand over the golden chest to gauge the weight of flesh, and had to
tear his hand away. Annatar's skin was temptingly radiant to the touch.
Celebrimbor
went to the side; a word to a second, and the first of his flails was in his
hand, a light horsetail that stung more than it seemed. He whisked Annatar
sharply, every inch of his back, raising a touch of redness to that flawless
skin. When he went around to the front, Annatar gave him a taunting look, as if
to say; is that the best you can do? He flushed himself to read that, and handed
off the horsetail for a flail of leather straps.
The
drummer paced faster as Celebrimbor began to flog in earnest. All the fine craft
of his hands was extended into his flail-arm, and the same joy and tension of
creating ran through him. As at his work-bench, he was lost in the art and in
the gold before him, its shape and response. Annatar was silent beneath his
hammering, only arching slightly, making the chains chime. The snap of the flail
met the rhythm of the drum and the pulse of his wheeling heart.
Celebrimbor
paused when the back was evenly marked to admire his work. There was a golden
girdle of skin about the waist where the flesh was fragile, but from the ribs to
the shoulders, and the spine-base to the thighs, was flushed red from the
strikes. He strode around Annatar and realized that his victim might be Maia,
but his body was flesh with the flesh's betrayals. Beneath the linen
loincloth, he was erect, and he met Celebrimbor's eyes daringly. "Give me
fair measure, for I am Maia!" said Annatar, the words drawing a murmur from
the watchers.
Celebrimbor
leaned close to him, running hands down Annatar's chest, clasping his
dark-golden nipples and twisting them. "Do you mean that?" the elf asked,
not daring to believe.
"Yes.
I swore to give myself to the Mírdain. Take what you will." The face before
him, shadowed within the long golden hair, was both rapt and knowing.
Celebrimbor called for another tool, and handed off the flail.
He took
up the scourge of one tail that he adored, a snakelike whip as long as his own
arm, and the seconds pressed the crowd back tighter. A fitting tool, he thought,
graceful for this graceful one. Hardly anybody could bear it for long. He
usually saved it for a few strikes at the end, that he might take a taste of
what he craved to deal out, and that the postulant might feel some terror and,
later, pride at the stripe or two they carried. One of the seconds gently
brought Annatar further forward in the circle so that there was more space to
swing. Then Celebrimbor began.
He
stalked behind Annatar in an arc, dealing out strike after strike. The scourge
made both Annatar and the air itself cry out. He felt himself smiling, and shook
himself to loosen his shoulders more. The sweat poured down his own bare back,
and he felt his cock hard, his body seething with dark heat. Sparing a glance at
the crowd did not abash him; they were as humbled watching as Annatar was
beneath his whip. The seconds looked stunned. All hung on his hand, his moves,
Annatar more than any other. He felt that he drew the hunger of the watchers
into him, and whirled the whip again, to give them more. The blood surfaced,
brilliant as rubies; one, two, three more lashes, and Annatar still held the
chains. But he slumped to kneeling.
Celebrimbor
went and stood in front of him. Annatar cast up again the same serene, receptive
look, his lips parted dreamily, as if he was vision-swept after his suffering.
The elf
dropped to his knees and took the Maia's face in his hands. Celebrimbor's
voice shook as he spoke, but all heard his words. "The trial is borne. Are you
ready to be made Mírdain ?"
"Yes,"
said Annatar, untroubled and clear.
One of
the seconds handed Celebrimbor first a towel, with which he wiped his own
sweating hands and brow. Then he handed over a small knife with a sharp,
flattened tip. Celebrimbor grasped it; to hold it was to feel as if your hand
itself was a blade. He tilted back Annatar's head, and measured one thumb's
depth below Annatar's winged collar-bones. Along the surface of the skin, on
each side, he made a slow slice. Some barely bled at this, but Annatar's
crimson flowed again. From a breeches-pocket Celebrimbor took the short chain of
gold and adamant he had completed that afternoon. He ran it through the blood,
then held it over his head and stood back up.
"Can
you speak the oath of the Mírdain for
us, Annatar?"
"Thy
works are my works, thy secrets are my secrets, and I am bound to thee. I shall
stand by you watchers, Mírdan among Mírdain."
Celebrimbor
pulled Annatar up from the floor, brushing aside the heavy hair to clasp the
collar around his neck. "The deed is done; Annatar is of the Gwaith-i-Mírdain!"
he cried. The drum ceased.
In the
moment of silence, Annatar flung himself upon Celebrimbor, the lean golden body
melding to the strong-thewed elf-man, bent to kiss him. The crowd gasped, and
the seconds stood wary. Celebrimbor reeled at the fiery whisper in his ear, "I
am undone." He felt the Maia's erection pressing high against his loins.
"Wait,
wait but a little," breathed Celebrimbor. So much had passed between them in
touch and glance, it seemed natural and destined.
"Here
and now," Annatar said.
Celebrimbor
wrested back the urge to pin Annatar to the floor and turned to the hovering
seconds. "We shall stay here," he whispered. One of the seconds rang the
bell again, bringing the ritual to an abrupt end. Annatar's wild move had
silenced the crowd of the Mírdain, and held them back from congratulating their
new member and their leader. The pair was isolated as the crowd slipped out,
respectful, dazzled, titillated. The seconds, not daring to gainsay their lord,
hurried them along.
The pair
swayed in their embrace as the last watchers went. When the great doors shut
with their echoed boom, Celebrimbor grasped Annatar's hair, and they kissed
again, hot mouths probing each other without restraint for minutes.
"I
never dreamed the arts of the flesh were so fine," breathed Annatar. "No
wonder Elves and Men love Middle-Earth, if such bliss is to be found here, on
the other side of its suffering."
"You
understand we who linger better," said Celebrimbor, reaching down to undo
Annatar's loincloth. "Do you know what I would have of you?"
"Others
have spoken to me of what it is to be taken, of your warrior's loves," said
Annatar.
"You
know it may be painful."
Annatar
stroked Celebrimbor's cheek, and his chrysoprase eyes half-closed in mirth.
"I am learning that Elves say that about the most interesting things they
do."
Celebrimbor
tumbled Annatar into another kiss, while finally undoing the linen ties of his
loincloth. "Lay at your ease, while I…" He cursed to himself as he felt
his pockets, no tin of unguent or even a lump of jeweler's wax about him. The
seconds had not thought of this, and he had not dared anticipate it. Then he
laughed at his cleverness, and walked to the wall, taking down one of the many
glass oil-lamps. He blew the lamp out, touching the hot glass lightly to undo
its light-shield and wick, bringing the oil-vessel back to where Annatar
reclined.
"First,
I shall soothe your pain, before we see if any more suffering awaits," he
said, pouring oil generously into his hands. He slathered the light-warmed oil
all along Annatar's beaten back, then worked along his arms, thinking they
might ache from clasping the chains so long. Annatar turned about like a coaxing
cat in the oiled embrace, laughing lightly and tracing his own fingers along
Celebrimbor's limbs. They pressed and slid against each other, and Celebrimbor,
in a move as old as the life of the Eldar, slid his hands down to Annatar's
rump, sleeking oil into the skin and the cleft. Annatar uttered a sound halfway
between a breath and a gasp.
"Try
this; a first finger."
Annatar
closed his eyes and rolled his head. "You lied to me, Celebrimbor; there is no
pain."
Celebrimbor
laughed against Annatar's shoulder. "There is a lot of oil, here! Let me
bring more." He turned to the lamp-vessel again, and slicked his fingers
further, then worked two fingers into Annatar's backside.
"Is
that well, beautiful one?"
"Take
what you would, elf-man. I will grasp your chains again, and if you do more than
I can bear, I will release them. Agreed?" Annatar leaned along the floor and
grasped the trailing ends of the chains, bending over in offering.
The
sight inflamed Celebrimbor. The shining golden body linked to the silver chains,
dripping gems of oil on the blue tiles; the spill of shimmering hair; best of
all the look of anticipation on Annatar's face, on the brink of knowledge, sly
and wicked, daring him. He wiped his hands on his own chest and unhooked his
breeches, then knelt up behind and slid his aching cock along the oiled flesh
until it glistened. Annatar shoved himself back, looking over his shoulder again
to see how well Celebrimbor was endowed. For the first time, the Maia made a
request. "Could you oil yourself more? Just to be certain."
After
Celebrimbor obliged, he worked fingers into Annatar until the kneeling one
moaned and rested his face upon the floor. Then he replaced his crafty fingers
with his cock, and groaned to be buried in the flesh he had tormented. The arse-channel
was so hot, it felt like the fire of Arnor seared him at the root. He bent
almost double as he moved, placing his hands on Annatar's shoulders, then
reaching to feel Annatar's collar of gold. He placed his hands over the collar
and the throat, feeling the life pulsing there, not compressing, only holding
his hands where he might compress. Yet this was a Maia he pierced. There was no
need to be gentle. He could not slay him, could not break him, could just go on
and on, taking more than he had known could be given.
The heat
of the flesh beneath him seemed drawn from the fires in the heart of the Earth,
more than any elf's touch. He felt the smooth legs bucking back to meet him,
the divine, impossibly tight arse all but milking his cock with its pressure. He
looked at the perfect lines of the back below him, the red marks of the whip
beautiful to his eyes, looking down further to watch himself taking, possessive
and proud. Reaching down, he rolled his grip along Annatar's cock, an
arm-motion that reminded his body of the joy of wielding the scourge. As he had
timed his strikes to the drums, so he timed his thrusts with his hand's pull
now. Annatar bucked back against him with a cry of astonishment as he came, and
Celebrimbor let go at last, emptying himself with a cry that resounded in the
echoing chamber.
When he
returned to himself, Celebrimbor moved back, careful and stunned, and sank
against the inlaid floor, glad of its coolness. He would bring them both water
- surely the Maia would thirst - once he could stand. Annatar withdrew to
sit upright, his arms ringed around his knees, serenity broken by a smile.
"Marvellous,
for the first time," said Annatar.
"A
first time?" he asked.
"I was
told it would be better the second time," said Annatar, innocently.
Celebrimbor
laughed, and said "One for the Mírdain!" He reached out to embrace Annatar
fully.
In the
halls outside, Aranwë fell back from the group that he was talking to,
conscious that Pengolod was walking alone, seeming bemused.
"What
did you think of all that?" Aranwë asked.
"You
know, when we bring someone new into the Lambengolmor, we gather in concourse,
dressed in our cloaks of green - and then have dinner together. Perhaps we
might be more interesting." They both laughed. "Of course, they made us
leave at the part I would have most liked to watch," Pengolod added, and Aranwë
became silent and grim.
"Have
I offended you?" said Pengolod.
"Yes.
What you craved to see is not what our rite is about. A private trial, maybe,
but that was…unusual." Aranwë spoke half to himself. "That was on the
edge of its laws, there."
"I
would not offend a Gondolindrim. I will speak nobly of the Mírdain and this
rite, I promise, by the ink on my hands." Pengolod's raised right hand was
blackened on one edge and several knuckles from the ink of millennia of
scribing.
"Ah,
you are marked by your work, as am I," said Aranwë. "We smiths forfeit our
hands to our making." Pengolod clicked his tongue in commiseration, and ran
his ink-stained hand over Aranwë's scarred ones.
"It
has been better than I thought, to meet an old city-mate," said Pengolod,
speaking low. "Perhaps you and I might speak more in the language of old -
its most intimate words?"
Aranwë
stepped back, and a few long strides took him well away. "No! This is just
the heat of the hour. You would be sorry, tomorrow." He did not explain why.
"I would not lose a friend thereby." He went to go down a smaller corridor,
away from Pengolod's path.
Not
knowing what else to say, Pengolod cried, "I still have your cloak!"
Aranwë
turned around. "Keep it for your journey to Khazad-dûm tomorrow. You said
yourself it is warmer than your own, and you will need it in the sunless
depths."
Then Pengolod was alone in the stone hallway of the Mírdain, its few night-candles dim after the lamps of the chamber of ansereg.
Next: Coupled Power. Galadriel Returns and Receives the Elessar, Celeborn is Tolerant, Pengolod is Vexed, Aranwë is Tempted, Sauron is Inspired and Revulsed, and Celebrimbor shows why his name means The Silver-Fisted.
Story
Notes:
The loremaster Pengolod and his time among the Dwarves are canon and detailed in "Quendi and Eldar," The War of the Jewels, History of Middle-Earth series.
Wedding-jewels
of the Noldor = "Among the Noldor also it was a custom that the
bride's mother should give to the bridegroom a jewel upon a chain or collar;
and the bridegroom's father should give a like gift to the bride." "Laws
and Customs of the Eldar," Morgoth's Ring, History of Middle-Earth series.
Gwaith-i-Mírdain = Fellowship of the Jewel-Smiths. Mírdan = singular for jewel-smith. Lambengolmor = Loremaster of Tongues (Languages). Gondolindrim = Of the people of Gondolin. All words in which Tolkien's Welsh inspiration for Sindarin comes through.
See the Series Notes for more details.
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