Summary: Desperate acts, past, present, and future, occupy Elladan and Elrohir on the ride to Mordor's Black Gate.
Story Warnings: Slash, Incest, Graphic Sex, Horror. Rated NC-17.
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Note: This story is part of a series. See the links to related stories at the end.
To
be on watch was a sombre thing. Elladan and Elrohir stood like two grey statues
in the night, their cloaks drawn close over their mail and armour. They looked
about from a stony hill above Aragorn's camp, a watchpoint for those with the
sharpest eyes and stoutest hearts.
At times they turned to view as much as they could with their keen eyes,
seeking torches or movement in the drear lands about.
From
the high point, they could see the fell vales of the road through the lands that
led to the Morannon Gate of Mordor, dim in the clouded darkness. Along the road
that led to Mordor, darkness' forces had written foul runes, or hung high the
bones and rotting bodies of fallen men of Gondor. That road passed through a dry
land, a dead land, bramble-twined. The plants and very stones grew more troubled
and perverted the closer they came to Mordor. Nearer, they could see Aragorn's
company before them, diminished by a thousand men. Aragorn had dismissed the
faint-hearted that day.
They
stood beside each other. The twain were lovers, and such as valued secrecy. Not
only were they both of male kind, they were also the closest of kin, being
twins. On the ride from Minas Tirith to the Morannon, they had stolen time to
set all unease to rest between them. For they knew the counsel of Aragorn's
command, and that they likely rode to their death before the gates of Mordor.
Much had been said and settled, though they stood quiet now. Both had agreed
that they should not be distracted from their guarding duty with words of
passion or wayward thoughts. Each found a certain peace in the other's wish to
continue with that passion, despite the laws and guilt that barred their incest.
There
was no sound in the lands about, not even a breeze to freshen the stagnant air.
One of the twain stood with a bow at the ready in his hand, and they both looked
upwards at times, tense. They were waiting for the scream of a Nazgûl.
But
they heard a crunching on the stony path behind them, and they turned to that
instead. "One set of footsteps, but two voices," said Elladan, lowering the
bow.
Elrohir
stretched. "That would be Legolas and Gimli." The twins turned to meet the
pair that came to meet them.
Legolas
leapt up to the hilltop first, soundless and fluid. "Well met, sons of Elrond.
Any luck shooting Nazgûl?"
"No.
We have not matched your shot in the dark, Legolas," said Elrohir. "Our
eyes are not as sharp as yours."
"You both have eyes sharper than
mine," said Gimli, gruff and kindly. "It is for Legolas to look about when
we watch, and I shall listen."
"Gimli has the ears of a fox!" said
Legolas, and the Elf and Dwarf both laughed at a private joke.
Legolas grew serious as he stood beside
Elladan. "We were told there were two points to guard from here; the sky,
where the black beasts fly, and the road coming from Mordor. Is that the track
below, going through the darkness?"
"Yes. You can see its light," said
Elladan. There was a dim, sickly glow to the corrupted flagstones stretching
into the night.
"A fell road to watch," Legolas
murmured, "The road to Mandos in the past for my kinsmen. My grandfather
Oropher perished near here, fighting Sauron's forces…."
Elladan bowed his head respectfully.
"I know the tale of Oropher."
Legolas smiled. "They still tell it in
Rivendell? Excellent." He missed Elladan's surprised expression, and spoke
on. "It is good to know that others speak of how my grandsire rode against the
Dark Lord in the Last Alliance, leading the van, and falling first and
bravest."
Elladan and Elrohir exchanged a look.
"Ah. Yes. Great and tragic," said Elladan.
"My father, Thranduil, has been
grieved for his loss as long as I can remember. It was a great part of why I
joined the Company of the Ring; the chance to avenge my forefather by helping to
topple Sauron," said Legolas.
Elladan turned to the Dwarf. "What of
you, Master Gimli? Do you ride to avenge any of your kin?"
Gimli said but one name. "Thráin."
He stumped his axe handle on the ground, and glared at the pale road below them.
"Thráin father of Thorin. He was my father's liege. Sauron put him to
torment in his dungeons." It was likely that he had heard from Legolas how the
twin sons of Elrond rode ever to avenge their mother's own torment. With
Dwarvish discretion, he said nothing, but he gave them a deep look, nodding
slowly, solid with approval.
The twins bowed together to him. Elladan
said, "We will all ride on to our revenge tomorrow. This night, we go to take
what rest we can." With that, Elladan and Elrohir left.
Their own ears were sharp enough to hear
what Gimli said next to his friend. "Almost Dwarvish, those two. As we were
saying before, you will help me braid up my hair one last time tomorrow? Good.
If I fall for vengeance, I would make a handsome corpse, at least."
Elladan glanced back as they walked down
the hill, beyond their hearing. Their path went between some crabbed oak trees,
their winter-dead leaves clinging to them like grey rags. "Handsome
corpses." Elrohir said, quietly. "We shall be lucky if we are, after we fall
at the doors of Mordor." Both twins had been at the counsel where Aragorn and
Gandalf had admitted that their challenge against Mordor, while drawing the Eye
of Sauron from wherever the Ringbearer roamed, was likely their doom. They had
agreed with their father's message, that the challenge was their path, and
they had said they would not turn back.
Elladan stopped walking. "Interesting,
is it not, how desperation makes us all the more mindful of the legends of the
past."
"I was glad you did not tell Legolas
what they say about Oropher in Rivendell," said Elrohir. "He would not care
to hear what we were taught, that Oropher's rashness and defiance of Gil-Galad's
command undermined the Elves at the Last Alliance."
"Who are we to say which version of an
old tale is aright?" replied Elladan. "Our grandfather Eärendil - his
errand sounded desperate unto madness, to sail over Sea and beseech the Valar.
Our grandmother Elwing did strange deeds for love. She is praised, and we hear
she had a good fate, but she abandoned our father as a babe, to keep the
Silmaril from the Sons of Fëanor and go to Eärendil. So, do we say that Eärendil
was a craven or a hero? Was Elwing cruel or wise?"
"Both, maybe. It was the saving of
Middle-Earth," said Elrohir. "Your words make me think of our own tale. It
might be said that you and I are ill-starred sinners." He put his hands on his
brother's shoulders. "But I do not feel that way. You turned all the old
tales into questions. It makes me ask what our tale shall be, in the end."
Elladan sighed. "Sometimes, I wish our
tale was different. Not," he leaned in to whisper, "that we were never
lovers; no, not that. I would change the sorrow of us being kin for that of
meeting you late in life, a stranger, and mourning the lost time we might have
had."
"That would not be our story, and we
would not be ourselves," said Elrohir. Guarding their affection, he peered
about. "Listen, if we are going to speak of this, let us get off this path.
These sad oaks make a copse to our left." The pair slipped in between the
trees and stones.
Elladan looked about at the grey-hung
branches. They seemed long dead. "I have looked to the old tales all my days.
Such tales were the only times I ever heard of desires like ours, kin for kin.
Yet even in the tales of mortals, such couplings were always a time long ago and
far away, shielding the listeners with that distance."
Elrohir said, with vehemence, "I
don't give a toss for the old stories. None of them end well. Nor do I care
what happened to anyone else. I'll tell you what I would change about our
tale; I would give us some peace. Ever since we came together, death has haunted
us. It haunts us now. This is the only honourable road, to fight against Sauron.
But we know none of us will survive this mad feint." He drew back his hood,
for he wore no helm.
Elladan saw that his brother was drawn,
grime traced along his hard jawline, his hair pressed down and his braid hanging
lank. Grief and love smote him. "You are wise, Elrohir. I do not think so,
either," said Elladan, setting the bow and quiver he carried to one side. Then
he remained looking down, abashed. "I have not been a good lover to you. I
never gave you much peace."
"You give me the truth," said
Elrohir, reaching out to clasp Elladan's hand. "It is not easier, but it is
better, for who we are. And you let me have what I desired from you." He
closed his eyes for a moment. "I always do the same thing. I am doing it
again."
Elladan blinked. "What do you mean?"
"I mean, I ease up to you with
touches, you let me, and we fall into lust without saying a word. As if it was
not our idea, but some accident." Elrohir pulled his hand back. "See? I was
doing it now. I know why, too; if I do not ask you in words, you will not refuse
me with words. You called me a fool for my courage on the Pellenor, but that was
nothing, nothing to what it took for me to ask you, that first time."
Elladan was quiet for a moment,
unravelling this. "You are right that…the way you come to me…makes it
easier. But I was ever holding back on speaking yes to you, not no."
"If I asked you now, would you say
yes?" asked Elrohir. Before his brother could reply, he rattled on. "You
probably think me base for asking. Yet we may never have the chance again. I
know, we have not even a shield to shelter us, and six thousand men sleeping
near…"
It was far more awkward to break the
habit of years, to be asked; to be confronted with the choice. The open door for
refusal gave a little honour to acceptance. It was enough for Elladan to say,
with a relieved heart, "Yes. It is risky; and I will risk it with you." It
was he who stepped up to his brother, lifted his arms and drew his lover close.
They had kissed briefly to reconcile,
hidden in a tent on the Pellenor, but this was different. Here, they would dare
all, and their mouths were desperate, thirsty, swallowing each other's groans
of hunger. As they embraced, vambraces and sheaths clanked together, and shaken
mail-rings tinkled. The sounds made Elrohir draw back with a curse, looking up.
The watchers on the hill-top were distant; the camp was a ways away; but he was
still wary. "Our gear makes too much noise. The quietest thing I can do is
what I most want to do, anyway."
Elrohir went to his knees and slid his hand beneath the split skirt of
Elladan's chain-mail, up along his lover's thighs. "I want you inside me,
I want to taste you, one last time." Kneeling close, he pressed his face
against the hauberk, warmed by the body beneath it.
Elladan arched back, roused and shaken
at the hand stroking between his legs. "I want the same from you. See here!"
Elladan shifted the brooch of his cloak. Elrohir expected him to cast the
garment to the ground. Instead, Elladan drew up the hood around his face, then
pulled the generous cloak shut around his legs and his kneeling brother. As
Elladan stood, Elrohir was shielded inside the bell of fabric.
"Marvellous," said Elrohir,
laughing muffled. "If anyone comes on us, they will think us but a pair of
catamites -"
"-- which is troublesome enough. At
least you shall go unnamed," said Elladan.
Elrohir embraced him around his waist.
The shielding cloak made it close and dark. It did not matter, for he knew the
fastenings of Elladan's clothes as well as his own, even how to loose the
curved steel plate shielding Elladan's crotch beneath the mail. Soon, he used
one forearm to hold the mail-skirt up while he devoted himself to kissing and
licking at Elladan's cock.
Elladan, with delicate caution, leaned
forwards and braced himself against one of the stunted trees with one arm,
arcing so that the cloak still fell to hide Elrohir. He had been armour-bound so
long that it was a shock to feel hot breath against his loins, a firm, warm
mouth taking in his shaft. Elrohir's tongue had not forgotten what his lover
liked, sliding along his underside, flicking over one sensitive spot. He felt
his cock harden. Knowing that he would not have to ignore the tight pleasure of
it, that he would have the release he craved with the one he desired, seemed a
gift beyond hope. His brother's name was on his lips, but he forced himself
silent.
Elrohir paused and slid back to speak.
"A moment. This alone rouses me, and my own codpiece…" Elladan heard
buckles undone, then his brother's relieved sigh.
"No fear, I shall do this for you,
soon, very soon," Elladan whispered. In response, Elrohir devoured him.
Elladan's only thought after that was to urge himself towards coming, for the
briefer their pleasure, the less their chance of being discovered. When he felt
Elrohir's hand clasp in a tight ring around his cock's base, he came,
bucking down and then leaning against the tree again, knees weak beneath their
armour.
Elladan sank down beside his twin, knees
crunching on the stony ground, and leaned forwards to kiss him. Elrohir rested
his cheek against Elladan's. "Would that we had time for everything. But
this will do," said Elrohir, standing.
There was one vulnerable moment, Elladan
kneeling before his brother, before the cloak closed around him. Elladan felt
that he needed no other refuge than that, even amidst the Morannon. He did as
Elrohir had done, parting and lifting his brother's split mail-skirt with one
arm to access the vulnerable flesh beneath it; this left his other hand free for
caresses. When Elladan tongued the folded rose of Elrohir's foreskin, he felt
a hand clasp the back of his head. He lingered on the cock-head before him for a
long moment, saving the taste and feel in memory, aided by the dark. Then he
took Elrohir's shaft down his throat and milked it with all the art he had.
By his fast breathing, and the heat of
his skin, Elrohir was as intent on pleasure as Elladan had been. Soon, Elladan
had the satisfaction of feeling his brother spend down his throat, deep enough
to swallow with only the barest taste of the seed. The deed done, he regretted
for a moment that he had been so fastidious; the salt taste had a clean note,
worth lingering over.
Elladan felt the hand behind him shift
to his shoulder, urging him up. "My turn to ask for a moment," he said, and
replaced Elrohir's most intimate armour. "There. Now orcs will have a hard
path to unman you." He stood, and adjusted his own gear as Elrohir smiled.
When he was done, Elrohir held his arms out. There was no need for speech, not
with how Elladan came to him, coming close slowly so their armour would not
clash.
Still close together, Elladan spoke.
"If we die, or are taken for torment, that is the end of us. But what if we
survive this dreadful feint?"
Elrohir said, "I thought I was the one
who asked questions." He stood back after a last clench. "You have a good
point, though. There has been little planning for a retreat from the Black Gate,
or for any who might survive battle there."
"I think that any who live ought to
keep on fighting, even if Sauron regains the Ring. If open war is not possible,
we may still harry and trouble Sauron's agents, as we have these past
centuries." said Elladan. "Valar forfend - even if you fall, I would do
so, for the both of us."
"My shade would be glad of it. If you
fall, I do the same." Even discussing the worst, after what had gone between
them, Elrohir's eyes were less troubled. "If such comes to pass, the
survivors should also send messengers to the North. Let us speak with Aragorn
about this, in the morn."
They
left the refuge of the half-dead copse. When Elladan knelt to retrieve his bow
and arrows, he felt a gnarled branch catch against his cloak and brushed it away
roughly. The branch did not snap dry, but sprang back, wick beneath its grey
bark, unexpectedly alive. Before he could mention this to Elrohir, his brother
spoke. "Look to the West! The fumes are thinned. I can see a star." They
peered up together, and it was so, one star alone and faint amidst the mirk.
"It
must be Eärendil's star," said Elrohir.
Elladan's knowing eyes gauged its position in the sky. His loremaster's mind was less than certain of that; it might be, and it might not. After looking up for a moment, he reached to clasp his lover's hand. "Yes. It must," he agreed.
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Story Notes:
Story is set
during the ride from Minas Tirith to Mordor in the ROTK chapter,
"The Black Gate Opens."
Oropher
= Legolas' grandfather. Oropher led a force of Wood-Elves of Mirkwood to
the Last Alliance in the Second Age. Unwilling to follow the elvish leaders,
he led his troops out to fight before the signal was given, and he and many
of his host were killed. "The History of Galadriel and Celeborn," Unfinished
Tales.
Eärendil and Elwing
= The really short version: the grandparents of Elladan and Elrohir. They
were both half-Elven and half-mortal. At the end of the First Age, Eärendil
sailed over Sea to ask the Valar for help against evil. Elwing jumped into
the Sea, carrying a potent magical jewel, a Silmaril but abandoning her
infant sons Elros and Elrond, to keep the jewel from someone trying to take
it from her. Eärendil and Elwing managed to reunite and, after asking the
Valar for help, Eärendil was set to sail the sky in a magical boat,
carrying the Silmaril as a star. Sourced from The Silmarillion. Also
referenced in Bilbo's song in the chapter "Many Meetings" of FOTR,
"Eärendil was a mariner…"
Please do not repost this story elsewhere without the consent of the author. First posted November 26, 2002.